RYAN

2010-09-05T12:09:00.000-07:00

I'd be super touch if u told that to me. Or even just replying rather then turning away T^T

2010-07-25T04:32:00.000-07:00

Long time no blog /MSN....but sad to say i am down with this fucking virus at this stupid period. My Malacca Competition coming friday is still pending...ppl are chionging projects whereas i am recuperating... dammit la...
I dont think ppl care too cos everyone is so so busy....walao...time is just betraying me T^T

2010-07-18T09:51:00.000-07:00

Eh bro...dont talkcock lahhh...talk so much den never do work...until it becomes irritating....
serious sia and the worse thing is u dunno ppl buay song.... wth
Anyway the pic abv is from club crawl me aint not gonna trash talk bout this pic...but the Malacca Tourney is near its just 2 more weeks...and i got owned big time against tt aljunied CC black belt ytd...the feeling was like...and i broke down...i never got so much pressure in fighting before...
And i got JAVA and DBMS quiz this week....ahhh Tank 1 or 2 more weeks can liao lah...and i got a FUCK in my C++ interim...CB lah...choose wrong module...damn sucky lahh...

2010-05-01T02:03:00.000-07:00

Haha i am proud to say i got no more feelings towards....
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Nvm long story...dowan type out here..but no worries i aint Last nght sparring i was too tensed up and i think that cause the tightness in my legs...
And well i have got myself having friends amog the TKD freshies, like hmm Ron, Clinton and Henry many others could not really rmb all thier names...
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The problem is we like to save our faces...

2010-04-23T11:16:00.001-07:00

Waiting for part 3 and i am waiting to see wads the ending of the commando bee.....
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Had great sparring with marcus and ZhengYi even though i won him by a tinge and lost to zhenyi 9-2...haiss...
Hmm next up would be TKD orientation camp...gotta do a great job outta it...
Tmr gg to sch with EXCOs to plan the camp plus call freshies...
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I may be a nuisance to you so before my birthday i swear i will forget you...

2010-04-18T01:58:00.000-07:00

Modus Operandi for Year 2 Week 1
Mon-Sch Re-Open
Tues-SU Club Crawl Briefing,TKD Club Crawl Rehearsal cum Training
Wed-Morning SU logistics Stuff, Noon FMO OGL Planners and Helpers appreciation lunch, TKD Demo and performance
Thurs-TKD Demo and Performance,SU logistics stuff/ Night class
Fri- TKD training
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Should i say its an happening poly lifestyle or a totally cui and shagged one...i'd rather i go back school everyday and do FMO planning till late nights rather then this shitty stuff...
Lousy timetable with night class and lots of lobangs in between..ahh so wad if we hate it...we still gotta go on with life dont we?

2010-04-15T16:20:00.000-07:00

hmm when u thought chances were all yours ppl find all means to break it...seriously trust no one ppl can give u gurantee promises...but the fact is these ppl are just giving you a answer for the sake of answering...main purpose is that they do not wan to get hated...
But a fact is a fact...i just feel damn sucky...because there are liars all around..and frankly I AM JEALOUS!
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At least i wanna know how you feel about me....i am sorry for not being the type you want that takes initiative

2010-04-13T08:50:00.000-07:00

Its a lesson never smoke..after 1 week plus training my running performance dropped....cannot endure kicking.... In whole my stamina went way down....
Shingzzz...my 2.4 timing is now 11+ mins....i can do it in around 9mins lor before...summore with padding/jacket on nvm these are consequences...know from your mistakes and dont do it again...
as said "Human makes mistakes"....
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Tomorrow is IT1007 outing...yipee...i hope they can be so bonded like now in the future and organize more outings like this...Anyways, i know they are up to no good tomorrow...6th sense bah~

2010-04-11T20:17:00.000-07:00

Grading over, Planning over, Trail runs over,FMO over, Chalet over....
All i gotta say that these are fun and memorable moments...an how i wish time would rewind back itself....
1 month short period? but great friendship bonds formed...just like brothers and sisters...
Chalet...k la learnt many new stretegies in gambling...hmm frankly nothing much just an ordinary chalet...
Nth much liao, outing outings and more outings coming up....
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Really i dunno what i want...what should i choose...but however only me myself can make the decision...feels really troubled...
Just hope that you would continue sleeping in my arms as long as time lives...

2010-04-04T09:47:00.001-07:00

Finaly got some 3 hours of solid sleep from more then 48 hours
things i have done accordingly
-Basketball with finale guys
-Zen training
-Overninght props makeing at Amos place
-Jurong east grading
-Back to meeting up with Amos and Sherly(decoy GF)
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Didnt know i would smoke didnt you...why i do that? To escape reality and numb the pains from my heart....i didnt want you to see it cos i know it isnt a good impression however there nth much to hide anymore now...
I used to think using tubes of cigars to numb oneself is stupid money wasting health ruining...but TELL ME what can i do? Penknife to cut my wrist? I didnt like it either...
I will try as much as possible not to touch those stuff again...Please dont crack the broken heart again...
I thought i immobilised a army for the next second...a army from another kingdom came in...
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"You know how pain i feel...doing so much for someone and in the end with someone else
Hope you know how can i feel =(

2010-03-25T08:57:00.000-07:00

I'm just a SexyBoy....I'm not your BoyToy~

2010-03-23T09:44:00.000-07:00

Wah hengster today...ok i start with the morning ....
Wet weather day however a dull weather turns out to be a great day...i passed all my modules and hmm...i improved a little bah...
&& i went late for planning today no commets bout planning i went there for 5 mins and went for the sec sch OutReach thing...be a tour guide...Facinating thing was when we went to SEG i was curious aboit a Microchipboard picked it up and took a look i tilted it and all the chips on the board fell....=.= effed up and i must pick up the bits and pieces on the floor...
Training today...ahh all the footwork and stuffs...FLYING SIDEKICK for club crawl and i still cannot do a perfect one...however thank WeiSoon for teaching us...=D
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Feel so good while we are on texting mode...you are awkward i am awkward too...but i will try my very best to kill the awkwardness

2010-03-18T09:43:00.000-07:00

Lots of events coming up....
-FMO planning
-Supporting for Chin Khee Shin Cup this weekends
-SMC
-Grading @jurong east
-NYPTKD retreat chalet
-FMO
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hence i am still living on my parents, and i apologised for breaking the door last week...it cost a bomb...but i hope they accept my apologies...which means i am not working this weekends...i know there are many job offers but i aint going for any...
Now back to the days of WWE again...however i am only watching the legends of my time matches haha
FMO seriously it sucks...plan? say out what you dont like? hello in my opinion its not for the other party to change is that ppl want to see our true colours...if you know what i mean...Also la got alot of ppl wan step one leader...Ive been there done that from Primary school to Sec sch...& ive seen too many...there are reasons for acting the way i am...You want i could have done it better from the start but i chose not to...for me?i just treat it as a gathering session thats all...so boy youve got it all wrong dude...
Ive yet to know my patterns...probably i will learn it by hard next week

2010-03-07T06:23:00.000-08:00

Today last day of Taekwondo Opens...this event i think is the most anticipated among all Poly, Uni and JCs...its just a some sort of inter school taekwondo olympics,where you gain medals and they rank your school...
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Anyway i did not win any medals but i gained exposure....abit sad...its just like you fight till the finals and you just lost...the feeling is damn bad....but i tried my best its just that ppl is training harder then i am....
Anyway the stress are over...and there are many more events coming up...
Fly weight category has so many ppl fighting for the 2 slots....am i up for it?

2010-02-26T21:51:00.000-08:00

Ytd target training was seriously tough but i realised ytd the more i kick i was tired...but however i feel more hyped up...
TOC@NTU next friday wah summore is in the early hours of morning 6am must wake up siaa....theres very little time left to train uhs...i see other poly the pattern really sharp and zai...got 1 bronze just 1 i happy liao....
And after TOC theres gonna be Silat MMA friendly
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Wonder next week will my team be training intensively....
Seriously i think that basterd is seeking for trouble...even when i talk to otheres he wanna intefere...ok??=)) i am ok with that but any mishaps happen to you...i dont wanna hear any pathetic warcry...
JASON TAN get it right dude it isnt that i am backing of quickly cos i knew that when i carry on i might lose control of myself it looks bad on me...i dare say i aint afraid of you....
Mentioning bout ur name ppl Jason Tan is TKD SeaGames player...pls la but u???
So long as i have still a living cell in my brain i will continue fighting...get clear

2010-02-24T18:55:00.000-08:00

Wonder how will i fair for JAVA today...Nvm its like going to a war without ammunition....you are out there to fend for yourself...no backups no nothing it isnt like maths whr u got an A to bac you up....
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TOC poomsae i think will die liao...my team isnt meeting up and coordinating ourselves...3 men leh it isnt very easy sia...summore my team isnt very familiar with the pattern...
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Girls that are coldblooded do not get into an R/S or should i say people that are coldblooded. Because during an R/S i have seen it over and over again...ppl makes all sorta promises but when you Breakup you left the pain behind for the other party to handle....why cant you just take that pain with you when you leave. Never make promises during a R/S only losers makes promises...Want to show it?Prove it..dont hurt each other aftermath.

2010-02-23T19:36:00.000-08:00

Maths blanked out if only i were given more time to think and do...however whats over is over and lets not talk bout it anymore...left with java and DCN i will try my best bah...
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Hurt my insteps last night during training and haiss very sad ChaiLin again disturb me...vbad lo lol cos she taking revenge in facebook LOL...
Hmm i still dunno to work as wad during holidays accompany andre? Join ITshow? work in my cousin Networking company as trainee? F&B again ? Hotel? or where.....GOD pls show me the way....Amen~

2010-02-21T09:34:00.000-08:00

Today went to sir and mdm house to bai nian everyone was prepared to get angpaos...OHHH it was so generous of sir and mdm to contribute to the food and angpaos...haha and most of the time were spent playing POKER!~dunno uh lost a few bucks but at times when my luck comes got alot of windfall~
Crystal wore dress and everyone was surprised haha me too but i think its somesorta nice bah...nth against her HAHA so ppl dont laugh uh make her very paiseh eh....And CHAILIN!!she quite pretty...BUT haiis keep disturbing me LOL call ppl gang up and disturb me, vbad eh u...lol
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Ok and maths i havent started my revision...maybe i am overconfident that i will pass as always and taking things for granted...but i think meybe i gonna do a few questions tonight bah.
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You are the only person in my team to lose out...to lose to every person in the other team to where youu are the only one left....Now~ i understand bout the broken spoke thing...now hes obviously the problem, hes obviously the broken spoke, hes obviously the ruined-apple ...because theres not way this team should be losing like that and hes on a good team when he lost like that...How can you be the only survivor on your whole team when the whole team lose out?Maybe smths wrong with YOU.Its obviously known smth is wrong with you because anytime smths hurrah, u'll be quick to defend urself, u quick to be wronged.
So i cant do it i cant suck that up.For me now is no matter what,i cannot suck it up and deal with these ppl losing.I have to, i cant do it, they might get rid of me too.When they get rid of me it proves that they are already on a agenda of "already" going to lose out cos they are not going to win. With you around theres not going to be a winning team.
Now this is some grown adults,do you know weve to tear those grown adult male to get up.& look they got lucky and they wanted kudos, they really want somebody to get a pat on their back for something they shouldnt be expecting.which we had this whole social game...Yes i guess you had the "flappy" point get abit more hurrah but i cant even do it...because theres no way they should have gotten a thank you or kudos or a edible one for something they should have already done.
They are losers.They dont wanna win.They are just gonna whine out and get to the end. Its proven time to time again its been recorded and documented, this person dont win, his teams dont win, but he will make it he will do a great job...I cant level that...i cant suck it up and deal with ppl like that...So if others go its not worth it.For me not its not worth it.I cannot swallow myself to deal with ppl who dont care,to deal with ppl whose gonna lose out.Theres nth that I could make myself believe that its right.I would be wrong. I would be lowering my standards.I will be losing my own powers, if i deal with someone like that.

2010-02-17T20:45:00.000-08:00

Happy CNY and Valentines day...seems like this year aint in my favour immediatly after "chu 3" i kena fever and diahhrea dammit luckily now i felt better exams are coming lo...i hope my health doesnt play me out....
Hmm many things have changed with my cousin graduating from SP soon and 2 guys from my father side of relative is also from SP...SP quite popular hor lol...same same same old questions..how old? wad school? which poly? wad course?...ask so much for wad...u got job to offer me uh...
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For oh yea for my Elective i got into C++ but least got frens the but GS is really hated...nvr get wad i want...They alott me to some singapore chronicals and Marketing...ok i swallow the 1st term social studies/sg history module...but walao 2nd term marketing i think i gonna solo liao lo... die la...then i think must begg ppl to let me enter thier group for group work...DIE~

2010-02-12T18:18:00.001-08:00

Like to compete? Now the tunnel is closed dammit no more access. Happy?Wad a way to start a new year. WTH sia how am i gonna ask for access...hmmm .Yea eugene is right i cannot just keep depending on ppl. Dont worry dude u think i have lost? I have tons of plans ahead. Just comeon set ur obstacles dude.
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Ytd dunno ate about 50 pieces of prawns?and 40 pieces of mussels ,clams, scallops in the steamboat lol with NYPTKD peeps. haha quite fun tho...
Went to Ilumna arcade wow that was addictive. Its just like a mini casino....those slot and jackpot machines are not usually seen man...gonna head down myself and dit down there for hours someday in the holidays!HAHA

2010-02-10T03:23:00.000-08:00

Ok VB.net over presentations over next up is EXAMMMMM~!!! omgosh i dowanna think bout it just let me happily celebrate CNY....i gonna be broke soon so dont say i am rich guys...i depending on CNY to get $$ now....
AND AND logical AND operator...i lost my apple earpiece ytd while preparing for presentation...WTF sia...lucky got spare one...
But thinking on the good side...1313 wished me good luck for my presentation...how sweet of her lo....pass i happy liao uh...cos i aint so pro in my studies...i just wanna advance and not to retake any module man...
Tmr another long run of revision lectures....try my best to keep awake haha...
Friday no TKD and Tuesday siann...theres some CUI-ed videos of me posted on FB LOL credits to WanDin=D

<一闪一闪亮晶晶,我愛的人就是你> 1313!!!

2010-02-07T21:54:00.000-08:00

<一闪一闪亮晶晶,我愛的人就是你> 1313!!!....
Dont you want to win bugger? If i dont get you wont get em either.....
Due to project fever this few days...i wanna ease the stress level and tension...how ever i dunno what i have done was Funny or Stupid....Maybe it was my fault gave a sudden valentine day gift all of a sudden....It bounced back like a faulty cheque....Nvm maybe its to much for her to accept...But nvm luh she said she appreciate it....Thats girls you know~
Can laugh at me for my stupidity....but i am damn persistant...for only 1 reason...<33
Mr Jason Tan my tolerance have some level and i urge you not to get in my way....i play fair but if i cannot handle dont blame me....And seriously i dont really whr you are or whr you come from...tts my message to you....A MA WHO LOSE EVERYTHING IS CAPABLE OF ANYTHING
Gonna chiong my update now uh CRD finish left U...tmr presentation and wednesday VB test MUAHAHA...And i got into C++ LOL~ tattahh~

2010-01-29T09:09:00.000-08:00

Still dunno when to quit and yet hes ranting at blogger.....but sorry dude...your competitor here is very adamant....You not only cr8 trouble for yourself and your friends but also somehow affecting me and ppl around me...but i dont complain PLAINLY because i love her...but to me its all well too worth it if what i do can make u tap out.
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Chose my elective lol wad a logic right? When teacher say easy, nobody wan choose....instead all choose the hard one...human minds is really hard to understand...Is just like when a school give rules ppl try all ways to break it....
Anw tts too far to think ahead yet....My Java project seriously GG i dunno how to do....Anyone can help me pls?i am left alone to fend for myself...
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Tuesday going down to TP i hope i can trash some heads again like previously...Hope my in-steps and right calf can recover on time...

2010-01-26T21:27:00.001-08:00

25PIECE 25PIECE ....how do you feel when a fair competition turned into a corrupted one....As a Law Abiding Citizen i will saw him into 25 pieces and this guys is none other then _ _ _ ON(UNDISCLOSED)...
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My both insteps injured after fighting 1 brown tip and black belt from TP...Next week we going to thier homeground...NYP trash them bah....
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More tests coming up den project den exam....Lets die together

2010-01-22T18:19:00.001-08:00

It has turned from a one on one to a triple threat and now to a fatal four way...its hard but thrs a way to play it....in these table ladder chair matched ur opponents are not your target instead you should focu on the title belt....what i am trying to say is clear your mind and have a correct aim...
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iTouch for today or tmr? haiss still asking ppl for iTouch 3gs jailbreak 6blue notes hor siao siao....
Haha luckily these few days got some progress with....soon i gonna tell her the unbelievable truth soon..=D
Last night dunno why ppl so sensitive....it goes like tt
Sir:We gotto make an decision quick or not until next yr we could not get the jacket done...
*he starts telling us the 2 options call us vote
Me:eh john both the design really no so nice sia...
John: Yea why not we print the picture of the logo den amplify it behind.
*i start to tell sir have a last option
Sir:Oh yea hor,good idea
*Sir starts telling everyone last option then voting starts
Then when sir say options 1 and 2 its only 1 or 2 votes until option 2 i heard someone frm the behind raanting say the design is good blah blah
Me:Eh no need argue la,if u think design is good raise up ur hand no good dont raise up simple as that, keep argueing forever cannot get it done.
*Someone":I not argueing with you...
before she finish,
Me:zzz i not saying u mah...neither am i arguing with you
den when sir ask 3rd option abt 15 voted....den just when i tot over liao, "I AM SO STRESS *cries*"
lol not my fault rights...everyone knows it luh maybe she abit too sensitive Thx Winnie for trugging not wanting to go home to her house...=D

2010-01-20T08:42:00.000-08:00

Long time no blog? whose fault? not mine uh....blame VB.net and JAVA and this 2 modules ought to be revised again so lecturers? if YOU see this pls do smth....So little help yet so much to do....
Lucky me got good friends beside me to help...i wonder how am i gonna fare for Exams. How? hear the word EXAM scary right? 60% bear in mind....
iTouch waaaa....eshlyn got iTouch leyyy trust me i go hunt for 1 end of this week....haha 6 pieces of blue notes gone nvm but so long as we have things in common and be together $$ ishh no problem....
HAA dunno wad am i ranting either but 400+ mil angry sia...who says you own her>.<
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2010-01-04T09:03:00.000-08:00

New year new hopes new dreams~ 2010!!!
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What a year to be started out for some...me for example VB.net not even 1 function done when 1st hand up is on wednesday...
Today watched movie with my clique....ok luh scary but nice...called eugene to jio eshlyn they all out dunno wad happened she say she wasnt free...damn sadd...but nvm luh...its not the end of the world right??? HAHAHA
ANDAND very sad thing is when talk to her msn 3 times !!3 times!! hor always never say goodbye to me....She always treat me so cold dunno why....Who call me like her......T.T

2009-12-27T22:09:00.000-08:00

I want to get this i swear...when i want something i make sure i get it...

2009-12-27T08:41:00.000-08:00

Today i sent my army but the minute my army reached the city the gates were closed...Nvm man i will becamping with the same subject until u on9 again...blame me...She on9 the whole day but i 12.30 am den talk to her....verysad...
Nvm like wad eugene said einstien also tried a million times to get light to work....
tmr i am going to sch camp untl she on9 =DD
heartballoons~!!!gnna take over those kittys!

2009-12-26T08:44:00.001-08:00

Enemys are being scoped down to 4 ppl of which i have focused my target to one...Yes,he is a enemy one that has already invaded my blood vessels... i just couldnt take it, its just like my nightmare which i had few nights back where a force,a dark force thats pressing me down and no matter how i budge the pressure is still there...
I want to change something but till now i still dont have the answer...till now i have not done anything right...but it is something that i ever gave myself into...if i pull out now i am just gonna be like a loser...
Pictures does not show ho have you won me...its just spurs me on to bounce back further..the time has not come....
My heart just breaks when i see the pictures with you and "the" gang...i too have my gang but i am just putting up a strong front...

2009-12-25T09:36:00.000-08:00

Just finished watching a K-movie 2004 Spin-Kick...nice haha its the second time i watched cos the 1st time in camp i dozed off halfway...
i havent got my MMA video yet so to the peeps out there stay tuned...
i realised i havebeen doing 0 things so far in my holidays...i must do smth tmr sia...ever since i come back from camp its been 48hours and i cant think of anything i have done...wad have i been doing thinking of someone which i think she thinks i am a nuisance lol? i dunno either....but anyway i am not gonna give up so easily like last time....cos the word LOSER is not in my dictionary and when i back out it means i have lost....no matter how i fall i going to get up again...wads more this time competitors seem so weak...i lose i gonna be a disgrace..
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Just watch it dude if u think i will back out you are wrong....when i get the signal from my teamates i gonna just execute a counter attack just like executing a back hook and KO the opponent.

2009-12-23T00:13:00.000-08:00

Just got home from camp and i think total only sleep abt 10 hrs in 2 nites....Event wasnt so well planned...of cos got some faults by the planners and conflictsbu its gonna be solved
Fought MMA with Jeffry and there wasnt win or lose cos he has the strength to win my locks over and i used judo to totally throw him down...anw i gonna get the videos posted soon after i get it from Rayner...Heard that sir dont want it to be uploaded but i think i upload in my blog they wont find out bah....
And i am damn shagg i wanna sleep soon...more updates again more to cover

2009-12-20T08:21:00.000-08:00

Shes so cute talk to her only one word...SHUANG!! shes not the type who doesnt reply....Loves eshlyn soo soo much^^

二姐夫

2009-12-19T18:37:00.000-08:00

Sir:"Wheres your fire? You lost the fire in kicking already! i see you kicking better last training!"
Me:"Uh ok i try kick impact!Pam pam pam!"
Sir:"Still dont have wad i was looking for...the usual jumping backthrust in you was gone!MindBlock...Forget it stop kicking...kicking more spoils ur reputation..."
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i dunno what happened either my usual jumping backthrust which i can do usually and others cant do mostly lost...turning kick no impact...Sparring only threw a disgrace to myself missed my backthrust then got kicked in the gut and then in the head...Nvm now sparring i wanna aim the head alr dont care....Still dunno whos the drunken B!tch playing games in SU but i feel like hecking him into pieces...
Tmr 3D2N trg camp i wanna train hard no joke...
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二姐夫---->Cant stop missing her for a day...i dunno why is she called that either its all started by eugene

2009-12-17T07:46:00.000-08:00

Hmm i just cant stop thinking of you in LT
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Tmr is slaughter got draft,reflection +30% pract...KOed

2009-12-14T08:08:00.001-08:00

betrayed myself for not revising my work...was an *off* day for my class and i went to JB to makan and shop....just bought new shoes and slippers...
few down many more to go
list of uncompleted things
-complete printing the set of VB notes for revision.
-Networking group assignment.
-GUI presentation on thursday
-PD blog update.
-VB practical 30% ICA!!!!*openBook*

2009-12-10T08:17:00.000-08:00

Today some Java test went down the damn trash i dunno wad was i writing throughout the damn test either...this 10% surely bang wall and die...PD parachute also finish le(surprisingly it works)...tomorrow got roleplay hope everything goes on smoothly...
Everythings in a mess...my bag my room my JAVA workspace ...andwhen i say everything i mean EVERYTHING

2009-12-08T08:54:00.000-08:00

Its wrong to be a two-timer especially when it comes to relationships...and i know it...i gonna make up my mind this time round...cos two weeks later in Training Camp i gonna treat her well....And if i two time her i am not FIT to be in a relationship...
TKD is being dominated by some famale bitch i am quite unhappy bout it cos of her tone of speaking...i do not want to speak it out to anyone either..later become a gossip..haiss wad to do...like wad others say (Dunno Dont Care)...
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Happy 19th Birthday Catherine and thanks for giving me such a large portion of the cake=D

2009-12-05T19:23:00.000-08:00

Still remember when i was in Mr Lock class...
Me:Where does the number 48 come from....
Lock:It comes from the pevious working...the working comes from the question...the question comes from the paper...the paper come from the tree...the tree comes from the earth...the earth comes from god...SO DONT ASK ME GO ASK GOD...
Mr Lock knows i am just out to disturb...HAHA
Whats Poly compared to sec 4 man...i still remember when i just walk along the corridors be it teachers or students i would know every single one of them just like my buddies....in class?teachers are like brothers and sisters to me...Never stopping me from crackin jokes...never bring books or do work Mr Lock also dont care...why?cos he know i can handle those myself and produce an A but of cos there were pressure from him during O's....Winning foreigners is just like fighting never ending Vietnam war...Jacked them hand down in prelims in O's they bounce back even harder...And ppl from E3 used my finisher against me....
Thinking back last time i knew all my work so much so that sleeping in lessons and not listening still an produce results...
now things are different...the moment u sleep you would be lost and i realised it from the start...everythings on ur own no one to depend on anymore....
Just reminsence

2009-12-04T22:15:00.000-08:00

Sparring addiction...
Ytd plyed close up with a yellow belt gave him one hard one and got him so many times....felt so good.... but when fight with Sir still dont dare go in....other matches??no clue...
I cnt remember my pattern sia...its getting more and more difficult....
den when sparring wore number 2 padding den when xanthe wear it its like all my sweat on it....feel bad man...so wet...
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next week wah i dunno wads gonna happen i hope shit doesnt come like this week....

2009-12-03T09:05:00.000-08:00

Networking lecturer said IT isnt rocket science...but why ppl like me find it so hard to digest...
yesterday was the best the whole class was new to the new formats of disintegrating the formula of IP address to Binary..then we stared blankly at Aloysius then he say "eh you all unerstand or not? can give some response? why are you guys staring at me with the mouth open like WOOOOOOOW WHAT A MAGIC???" HAHAHA hes always been a funny guy...andnow i had it digested...theory wise?long way to go
Java dunno what i am doing either...walk and count the steps lo...same for the project
Maths tmr quiz 2 dunno what i am gonna up to...
Did some silly parachute for PD wonder is it gonna work...nvm weve been thinking of makingg a 2nd prototype...
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Tuesaday Sir teach us BOXING...haha "take for granted "that we got the protective headgear....but sir commended me on my long punches....+point ^^
$ use up liao must get from mother...dunno why these few days especially hungry keep eating....if i can reach 62kg it would be great else now for my weight at 59 in sparring category it would be a disadvantage for me once again Pseudo coding
weight= 62kg;
else(weight <58kg
)end;

2009-12-02T06:55:00.000-08:00

I dunno why ppl are working for the company....you just do ur job get ur pay and go to hell...when you work for the company what u get? Ur BOSS give you exta of the share uh...zzz
But anyway for today its my fault...i always tend to cheat on bus fare tap in then tap out liao cos nowadays very less bus conductors doing checks...sometimes MOSTLY is the singaporean drivers dont really care even they saw they just close one eye...Today the arseHole china national wah want to catch me red handed at the end of the ride he call me tap the card so i tap lo aiyah to prevent myself from embarassment i just tap again i think pay abt $1.50 extra...dangerous i think i got blacklisted by the driver liao....i think i dowan try such things again...
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Finish my GUI but my ldr dunno why wan call me do registration page...the training tips and memory game alr quite a headache for me...haiss and i came out with this Pseudo Code
IF(
"I finish my work then i help"
)
Else(
"go find other ppl"
)
return myJob;
Break

2009-11-27T09:07:00.000-08:00

When ppl to free they tend to do nonsence...
but for me i still got tutorial to do PLUS GUI...ahhh everyday we will tell ourselves tomorrow but when will we really get thigs to be completed...
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Today is Hari Raya (pussy) Haji luh tt guy in my class so damn racist hahaha funny though...totally BUANG! the weather already pissed me off....and i mean totally OFF!! And no TKD ahh time for a rest anyway...my poor POCKET GONNA get burnt soon i will recover it by working on december weekends bah...
I will spend more time during Trg Camp with you cos you are my aim PLUS motivation =D

2009-11-24T08:37:00.000-08:00

Ever felt your ribcage is Constricted by something so thight while you are gasping for air...and not only being constricted...you feel so stuffy in it...This is exactly how you feel in taekwondo sparring...a great deal of stamina is needed...
I must change my blocking methods or i gonna injure myself more...and i realised my able legs are abie to do different moves but i cannot get the opponent....
Hah anyway today when spar with Sir got him one point but the way he fight is really good luh...obviously i lost to him 4th dan even if i win is he give in to me one mah haha....but i will train more on my my accuracy and speed of getting my opponents....
&& i also realised one more thing i have improved on my footwork i always get my 1st point but then after that i keep losing points...hmmm my tactic uckily got some usage eh haha..Keep all the good ones dispose all the bad ones...
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Injured my wrist during sparring then she told me to continue put the icepack and den alerted me that i have another injured mark on my forearm...haha
Nevermindif my injuries paid of for wadever i want i think is worth it

2009-11-22T06:14:00.000-08:00

I gonna pump iron real soon like no other alr...cos i wonder if I have been lackin behind...
1)The return of Sparring things get heated up there and then
2)I will be prepared if an ambush comes...Cos i have been sensing it...cos my bro will helping the other gang...long story but most of the fights was sparked betwen me and him and outsiders interfere...i am having more and more of the 6th sense [lus dream that this is gonna happen when time comes i gonna be ready
i shall tell more about the tales someother time
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i have decided not to post personal matters here just in case someppl from XXX found my blog and start spreading rumours...i shall just next time post some really the outline can liao not too indapt or other will be reading a journal instead of a Blog.
I gonna work on saturdays from december starts cos i know i gonna spend too much on taekwondo stuffs...PASSION luh nth else ....+girls=money i will show u all the equation another time....so if i gonna stepinto it i MUST be financially ready

2009-11-21T06:17:00.000-08:00

Today had a long day in Ngee Ann City Plaza....quite disapointed in my performance for the Demo....Pulled out of self defence plus today i failed to break one of the wooden plank...Sir never scold me but if he did i deserved it...luckily i did it well during the VIP show...
&& the Aerobics was a total success especially when today she tied up her hair....look so cute HAHA...
Had so much of food...and Tim was so funny keep buying Otah to eat...he said its so tasty he wan ask whr to buy from the vendor....i also bought some den ate together with him....
Sir also commented that my build is very good call me to train harder...
Aftermath WenXin say she wants to go starbucks then the other group wanna go watch 2012....ahh but i so tired go to cinema sure doze off so i followed xanthe ,cat tim and all to starbucks....so filled and packed so takeaway and left walked around...Den john mentioned about macarons...quite EXP tho small piece like the size of a bottle cap slightly bigger $1 buy 2 to try luh....it was nice and sweet...Worth paying anw...
Walked and walked ,talked and talked den MRTed back took bounce back train den we STILL continueed chatting till i reached home~

LOVES~

2009-11-18T08:07:00.001-08:00

Sometimes i feel i very unlucky....especially when i think of the past
One perfect example is that my batch in BPS we dont even get an overseas trip...the only pathetic oversea trip i went is go hiking in malaysia in Student council....Do wad?? go thr 2D1N to climb mountain....and they claim thr got fountain but lol after i went to the kota tinggi waterfall i do wanna go anymore....PHOBIA its seriously so dirty so smelly....
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Still planning on which holiday getaways with andre i really need a holiday havent gone onto a plane for 1 yr liao....
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Sad i still doubt i can recover on saturday cos my backside still hurts...i gonna be pulled out of the selfdefence performance with Alex cos he cannot find a substitude....
And i hope when time comes my jumping front kick can break the damn planks...
I feel bad for Brian Sir ,becos of my injury affect his performance....SORRY~

&& She told me to recover well^^

2009-11-15T08:27:00.000-08:00

I think anothe 50 bucks flying out of my pocket soon....Brian Sir warned me over and over again to put NYP Logo on but i still never put ytd he warned me last chance or not punishment alr....so that cost me 5 freakin bucks....
and i dunno where they find the supplier heard is from some overseas...its 21 bucks after deduction. Design wise I must say is quite nice but seems like many prefer the round neck one for me anything luh money matters dude...And i still haven pay Grading fees...EFF ....
And i have train to land on the floor with Alex overhead throw...untiil continuous throw my backside finally swell with a bruise..it felt better now...but last night really i must sleep facing down...like Sir say ppl backside got meat u so skinny backside no meat btter eat more!!!!GRRR
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I think she also to busy to notice my presence...but i just cannot stop thinking @.@

2009-11-13T18:49:00.000-08:00

Ytd on fire dunno did how many extra sets of kicking that i droped dead after went home...Saw blah blah blah and felt quite happy she went thr for awhile only...i dont even dare to tell her cos there were past incidents where ppl got laughed at ROFL and pls luh ppl Black belt leh my rank sure much lower then her
I pissed wanDin off haha wah den she became quite vulgar lo....ps uh cos she also call me Lion hehe
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Last months picked up 10 bucks outside singapore pools and just recently i bought a charity ticket for the deaf association 10 bucks leh!!! almost 2 hrs working time...aiyah anyway for charity...some times money picked up outside the floor aint ours and i would just donate it....Good Karma

2009-11-11T08:33:00.000-08:00

How did i even fell so deeply into it...
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should i even forget about it...hmm i just cannot get that thought out of me...
The pictures are just so cute...
If things dont meet it will just belong to the saddened fate however i gonna try my best to let you know...i know i aint good at this but if i try i know that i still have a chance be it the least possibility...
*_*
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O's ended and ppl are enjoying madly soon they are going to find themselves getting nowhere at a total lost...they would be asking themselves what to do next.....
I find myself talking alot of trash today and i think my blog is having less and less viewers due to unpopularity.....summor meaningless post like this but i still want to gett what i wanna say outta me...

2009-11-10T08:16:00.000-08:00

Today before going to sch damn suay...forget to bring things then need go back take..summore the lift so slow...the indian women came in dunno pissed of wad....show face summore..WDV this kind of trival matters i dnt bother at all...
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In sch 2 hrs break followed clique to library..then my fren was told me to look at the girl,her name jasmine from my PD class den i took a few glance behind...as the view was blocked...den funny thing is a girl that was blocking her keep thinking that i looking at her....ahh so malu luh...i wanna look at fren den tio misunderstanding....
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After days of thought...i dunno whether shud i tell cos if i spill out...means whole TKD will know and i dunno if i gonna get laughed at....did i make the right choice????hmmm

2009-11-07T20:38:00.000-08:00

When you thought you had all the questions,they had all the answers.
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A total change of events...
I dunno luh ppl just cant be responsible enough to inform others and make others having a question mark on the head all the time...Dowan wanna mention about the incdent anymore...
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Everyday i am experiencing muscle ache now ever since mixed martial arts training when tuesday i train and till friday when my aches are almost recovering...training comes again...well i dunno whether thats a good or bad thing...
And FRIDAY...Sir wants to play a game of ground fighting...he split us including him into 2 groups of 7 and its a winner stay loser out that kind of thing....my team unluckily are all the ones with smaller size and attribute..And i was chosen to be the 1st man..i was already hyped up with motivation to fight i stepped up to wait for my challenger and a blue belt china guy 2 times my size and weight came forward...wow i suddenly felt so weak.........never mind i just endure how much i can and weaken him as much as possible for my next team mate...after struggling for 2mins i was out and aftr my team saw how i was manhandled no one dared step forward...EPIC isnt it?

2009-11-05T04:32:00.000-08:00

"Every day,every hour,this very minute perhaps dark forces attempt to penetrate this castle walls."as quoted from Dumbledore...
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You never know when is it coming...anyway whats over is over...just another terrible scare...
And i have made the unbeakable vow...to slowly correct myself from profanities...and improve on my results...many eyes are watching
Its horribly cold today and i spent 5 bucks at Macs aftr all the monopoly stickers i could almost figure out the rare ones...i got a toy'r'us $10 off and my friend got a fishburger free! another got a premium coffee and he gave it to me...how nice...

2009-11-04T05:35:00.000-08:00

No time to work man no time really ...SO TIRED , SO OILY, SO SMELLY..seriously aint go time cos of me finding trouble of myself getting myself the adrenaline rush...well projects, camp, quizzes, test, homework, CCA, time=X and i have a 6th sense that the battle there is getting worse...ppl got shot for real and left the battlefield
and worse of all getting myself addicted to some silly movies that cant be true...
I have seen better days ..and im coming to the end of the world
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Next week going to my aunties house to do some painting at her house...Camp EAGLE coming very soon...andres o's? ending soon...maybe soon going for a cruise trip together...

2009-11-02T09:03:00.000-08:00

Watched "that" movie....2 times and i hope i am really in that school...funny and some really touching moments...wadeva it cant be real can it?? after watching i felt like learining piano all over again....the melodies chords just sound so beautiful...the last time i learnt piano was when i was 5? being forced by my parents and i still remembered i felt so frustrated cos i cannot coordinant my fingers well enough...and so i decided to quit...haha regret, if not with my long fingers i would have been an 8th grader like my cousin now...
So do not ever live life with regrets...
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Dunno wad was that email for...open house i am gonna be the team leader for my class...ahh dunno wads my job either or just another title...

2009-10-30T20:45:00.000-07:00

Ok to all the punks out there find my post not favourable to ur likin press alt+f4 as simple as that...
hmm and someone i shall not name who has offered me a bloody opportunity to earn money....part tme bf ...limpei never make it sound blunt a cb ugly swine come ask me for such things and summore funniest part want pay me...i pay u to suck my dick want mah....wadeva lah i think you ait worth of that either just hide ursef i a porthhole and rot luh....knnn u change status ur taiji luh why need ppl help clear up mess for u....CB ppl change status at least ppl face is acceptable....hello look at urs still want follow ppl MOLERAT!
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I have trained for 2months and i still did not have a chance to have some blood coming out from that basterd ...are you afraid???why aint you coming to tkd???i wanna spar with you badly or that stone just would not come off my heart...

2009-10-28T06:35:00.000-07:00

Today dulan alr...
Kns 1 time 2 time never bring things i can lend u everyday think wd limbei ur sponsership uh notes i print out myself one also must lend u pen must lend everything lend...eh u got financial problem uh nb chee bye...i am seriously pissed with ur fcked up behaviour...sian luh i am ur group member thats why tolerate you or notur lousy attitude might have lared me up earlier on...
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And to attention seekers out there do not change status if u are not experiencing it dont attract a dumb fuck of attentions its not wise to do so...
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CONGRATS to andre on feeling that maths paper was easy...i am seriously happy and proud of being his coach for the past 2 monthes hope you gt ur grades well and head to a good course =D

2009-10-25T09:45:00.001-07:00

Just a visiting air raid...
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Initially tot to quit work once and for all and concentrate on studies...but the fun just couldnt end...and i just hope the good old times last....Best pal Joe's leaving,what it means???it means no sushi to eat after work in future...and ramen supervisor shawn is leaving cos of the 30% "discount"... i told Zane i might be back in 2 weeks time and he promised me he wont leave until february...
Today i shall sum up what has happened in short...
-Morning SMSed wilfred agent augustine and he want to offer me a job at M-Hotel on immediate effect...in the end i still rejected as my feelings were back at whre i was from the start..
-Fought war...and in late evening an air raid flew past JUST VISITING...luckily i and wilfred werent injured...got news from Joe that hes leaving for good...but we will remain in contact as good friends...
-Supervisor shawn is leaving as well...Had TONS and TONS of sushi at night till almost vomitted...
And i finally realised something when something you know is going to get missing you tend to treasure it more...

2009-10-21T10:06:00.000-07:00

Ahhh today totall screwed up my eyes played tricks on me i saw networking which actually no class today and i go early so i tot for 2 hrs no class but actually the 2nd hour got class its actually Internet application development and i nver go cause i see timetale see wrongly tot networking is 2 hrs period but its actually on the same tutorial room...ahh fuck it luh...
now i lagg behind dunno wads happening need ppl guide me liao...the homework i also dunno is wad....its some kinfd of Java and IWeb and HTML and ASP aiyah arrgh i dunno luh its a mixture of every thing tts why i am confused fuck today

2009-10-20T10:23:00.000-07:00

Today just only quite an embarassing ting happened to me...after teakwondo i went back to retrieve my bag but i gotto take the lift up...then i saw alex and nixon in the lift thru the cam...i saw there are 2 other girls so i didnt bother as i tot they were from TKD...so i decided to give alex and nixon a ambush by standing infront by the lift door to scare tem when it open...
Haha this is the good part...the two girls were from Foreign Bodies...they were shocked by my ambush...and den nixon called me tiko-pek...i dunno why also ever since i join the club he keep calling me that...den summore say i girl stalker make me so damn embarassed..zzz i didnt know those FB girls were inside the lift or i wont do that...DAMN Nixon and Alex...
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and today had sparring quite on form but i didnt attack to much for the last 2 matches out of 4... 2nd match was the best i keep striking that Yellow tip's head and i felt really good cos these lousy buggers should get eliminated ASAP...

2009-10-19T09:29:00.001-07:00

Back to school form a new project alliance hopes it turns out well...had some long chit chat with andre as well today...hmm i have signed up for 2010 open house for NYP wonder how it turns out to be...well i gonna update more on this...
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They say that secondary school friends are the friends you keep for life and the more i think the more its true to me...FUCKED UP NYP SCHOOL LIFE

2009-10-18T09:54:00.001-07:00

Sometimes working is not just about earning money for me its about enjoying the good and bad experiences...bonds and friendships ive come across...its the kind of feeling so nostalgic which i wont be able to get from poly life...
I have decided to fight aother 2 more hardy battles before i pull out of the army....really i love working in DholbyGhaut but on the other hand i am afraid its gonna affect my school work...
After fighting this 6 weeks episode of battle the next episode is gonna be IT0907 politics affairs...and i am really sick of this....what an unholyplace to be in...
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tmr meeting up Andre at NYP...i really pray hard for his maths to buck up my target for him is B
And i think ill be going for events job...but even though i dont think i will be as happy as those moments working at ishimura...its just like a relationship when you love the 1st girl you love her deeply...but when you break up and find a new relationship you will not love the 2nd girls as much as you love the 1st girl even though you have forgotten about the 1st girl,comparing the love...its life its reality...

2009-10-16T09:50:00.000-07:00

How many have i killed with my bare hands...
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Today is BPS graduation ceremony...so fast 1 year liao...thinking back countless events happened ever since then...
Had O's
then found job together with wilfred,andre
After tthat andre got hexed followed up by wilfred...
Played sometime of goodman after that and decided to switch to kitchen staff
Freshmen orientation came then NYP sch starts...deciden to get my feet back on TKD..and had some fucked up time with IT0907
den semester break went to BPS during tchers day...had met up with andre.. clinched another deal at ishimura with wilfred..
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Now today had a chat with my good ol fren mr lock tho we are still friends i still always regard him as my tcher for life just like the respect to mrs wee...they are just like my godfather and godmother...
Time really flies and it aint a joke...i aint really looking forward to the new semester but a quote from my godfather that gave me "When you come to the end of the rope,tie a knot and hang on"

2009-10-14T11:02:00.000-07:00

Tmd and i heard countless ppl looking forward to school reopen...damn..when sch starts make sure u dont complain...
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Today is pearl harbour bombing....many ppl got a surprised attack while sleeping...some itchy fingers must have pressed the 30% discount that led to this...now too bad lo really got 30% discount...to wad???haha not to your prices of meals hor but to ur salary....lucky i wasnt affected i am just another soldier in the battalion fighting the war...
What you call loyal friends...do not leave others out in anything even if you were to tell them 1st...lets say in a war my buddy got injured i will not run i will stay behind and help him...that wad u called buddy....DONT BE A PANG SEH KIA cos you have learnt it from young=D
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AND DONT BEG ME TO LET THESE BASTERDS to be in my project group when sch reopen...i damn sian when these fuckers come and beg me....cos you know why...my class is full of such FUCKS...and i mean it thats why i dread going to NYP....
Chosy ppl critisizing others behind thier back...now you tellme about others...but when time comes wil i be the one you will be critisizing about behind my back i wont know dude so i rather be aware of such backstabbers...

2009-10-13T21:23:00.000-07:00

Ytd sparring match seems like i never execute my kick to the head cos i tot it wasnt allowed haha nvm...had 4 matches ytd...
1st match vs yellow tip..crushed him hands down i used speed on him he caught off guard and was sent to the ground...
den i had 3 consecutive blue tips challenge...1st one that guy i dunno why he shorter ten me he want to execute back hook on me...i accidentally left up my leg and hurt his groin...wad to do??i say sorry lo thats the most i can do...i didnt mean it either
2nd one i vs a flexible guy hes th most flexible of all in tkd....he lift his leg can reach my head liao...nvm i scored direct one point on his head but for this match i obviously lost...
3rd one is a lesson learnt...if u give in ppl will take all advantage of it...i dowan kick his head he keep trying slamming kik on me...nvm take it a a lesson...
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Schools gonna start soon and monday timetable looks really bad 5 hrs break....haiss...and i hate mixing arnd with the damn classmates sick man...if only those tkd mates becomes my class....i would be so happy going to sch.....

2009-10-10T21:48:00.000-07:00

75 bucks in my pocket haha...
Yesterday payday but at night there were a sudden trampede...the problem with the army cannot cope is because they has just prepared enough what is needed for normal day...then tiuo jamm when there was a surprise attack....
Ah wai already had enough fighting the damn war...and when he come in the way he saw me take the ice he was pissed snatched the shovel and start showing me"THIS I HOW YOU PICK THE ICE"....
then shortage of cups i took over with stewarding
haiss no matter what the crowd still cannot compare to yishun on a normal weekday...
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hmm 75bucks i think i shall keep it for now...nth is in need

2009-10-09T09:13:00.000-07:00

Today quite dissapointing no sparring in training..that basterd son of a gun also never come training kns i wanna kick his ass with my combo i have trained very long liao...
Today had Judo training...and i partnered WanDin she so skinny and light when i throw her really like smashing her bones haha...i must apologise to her haha so bad hor...treat a girl so rough...
Hmm an i noticed i have a thing for 3rd years in my club...dunno why too but i prefer talking to them
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Chee bye tio bann in maple for hacking kns...
Sometimes when u ask ppl for advice or suggestion u follow them dont be like an ashole ask liao still follow ur own way if u think ur ownway is so good in the 1st place dont ask..

2009-10-08T07:43:00.000-07:00

High turning kick,Back thrust and then 360 turning kick...my self designed combo for sparring
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Today woke up late and reached work 1 hrs late then luckily my supervisor changed the timetable and saved me...so i worked till 6 lor...
Met Joey and Song Han on my way to work at Toa Paoh MRT had quite a short chat with them and they told me to have a energy drink"NAUGHTY G" i accpeted it anddidnt have a try at it...i wait till i have the need and i will drink it...i wonder how are they doing...
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Hmm seems like good things are coming ahead but endurance and hardwork is needed...

Intense Battle

2009-10-05T09:26:00.000-07:00

From 5pm start work till now a series of unexpected events happened...
Today i was almost late for work luckily arrived on the dot...or not pay deduction...chee bye
never mind and while fighting the war...a saboteur came...he tried to bomb everyone...damage was done in the end only casualties....
Joe from the sushi department was being shot like anything hes the soldier of the day...hes was the frontman tanking everysingle damage after that particular attack he came out of the battlefild with a black face... then Benjamin has to clean up the damn debris pissed as he was...now comes to RAMBO hes sick and tired of fighting the war...so many damage done hes the support everyday...so he decided to fall out and go home...Next is Hogan,he got badly injured immediat action to send this casualty back home...Hence danny was left to fight the war alongside with few of his troops alone...
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Lack of manpower wilfred was till fighting the war and i wasbeing sent to sushi department to help...cos joe needs urgent reinforcement...went there give support and i got sniped...
Later in the day...wilfred had to make a tough decision..another army wants to recruit him...but if he were to go hes gonna build up his empire all again from there and then...
At last in the day a sushi feast gobbled mountains of sushi....
Before going home...was curious enough to explore the toilet how a womens toilet look like...and when i went in the toilet light sensor on the lights...then i saw a cubicle on the female toilet locked...den i tried to push it...i looked down i saw a shadow...naturally i felt eerie...hurried wilfred and off we went....seems like a spirit is wandering around the building...i wont disturb it and hope i wont be disturbed by it too
UNLUCKY DAY FOR THE SOLDIERS

2009-10-01T08:33:00.000-07:00

hmm the more i feel i am just redundant manpower...haiss but better dont talk so much later get shot..got more work to do....
Just thought that last time when working in Yishun...its just like the Okonomiyaki stall cant do without me...not that i am boasting but there the manpower is not proportional to the crowd...and there are some retard not to mention names give extra job to ppl...wad to do? when you are working for ppl better not complain...you just gotto swallow it...unless you are your own boss...the heaven is yours....
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I miss "STEWARDING Ali" where did he gone to...everything seems to be haywire without him...
come back and fight war hand in hand with us and we can ensure smooth victory=D

2009-09-30T09:56:00.000-07:00

Wow my luck is coming...today walk passed Singapore Pools and guess wad picked up 10bucks then 2 weeks back picked up a dollar coin...a sgn of good omen...but dont get too happy...haha as wad wilfre said before when u find urself starting to boil up with luck another moment everything is gone...
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I am starting to traing explosive power at my tighs..and when i looked at my working place i think i can damage everything with my feets within seconds...menu pinned up with nails...sakae glasses being place on the shelf...glasses and plates being staked properly up...lanterns being hunged up...i just imagined if i am a wrecker unarmed i can just turn the place upside down just with my legshaha
perhaps ive been imaginating too much but i could just become a killer anytime...
As i have just learnt the pledge
-to remain humble honest and helpful
-respect elders coaches and seniorsregardless of creed ,class ,race ,language or religion
-believe in ourselves and persist no matter how great the challenge to achieve aspirations
-abide rules an regulations
-develop character,quality and ability to serve community and our country
with that learning this killig sport isnt just about fighting...
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Recently i had a nightmare... my recent "enemy" few monthes ago has gathered a hatred group of friends in BPS + some gangsters gathers ambushed me in a lift...and there was a few TKD kakis came from behind helped in in a escape i just dreamt that i was alost getting beaten up by a THICK pole of solid wood...and batons...and finally we spreaded and ecasped be running through different blockd in the HDB's...woke up sweating if it was real it was a close shave...
with my enemy level with "him" i am not surprised that it is gonna be real...for now its just a dream who know wad will happens next...and when he come i m gonna be ready...
that show how important are friend..mix with the correct ppl and not ppl that will backstabb u...

2009-09-27T10:01:00.000-07:00

and today i almost got hit by a artillery aiming directly at me....but at last i still survived to tell my piece of story here...i somehow managed to divert its aim or shield of its attacks...well wad is our army doing??? i just can tell you we are playing defensive...
anyway i dunno was our commander doing last 2 days i was away from war a now another 2 day away zzz .....$$$ pl0x....

haiss lets just make do with wad we have now....sometimes luck doesnt just keep come knocking on ur door....THATS life i gonna learn how to accept it...

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oh yea and i got a new phone and the camera is much better then before 3 weeks old alr...its Nokia 6500 hmm i gonna make do with wad i have

2009-09-26T11:28:00.001-07:00

Whether building a grave for urself 1st isnt impt..most imptly is getting yourself armed when entering the battlefield...
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2.04 alr is a pisser and goddammit when you wanna ask someone to do a favour for you dont be choosy in this world nth will suit you perfectly you just take it or leave it...cos you are begging for help...
And after this sem u can differentiate...yea and i mean differentiate those basterds from truthful ones...
Soon more and more of such ppl are going to surface thier true colours...my advice is dont be too close to anyone in case u get backstabbed...cos in life whether you are schooling work...or wadever...there the ppl on a wild goose chase and i dunno why they do this either... for example...like my case..in school ppl can be soft spoken...nice to you, when you ask them questions they dont give a damn to you they let u copy wrong ones or dont even tell u wad will they answer?"sorry this one i dunno,i also get wrong" OR "this one i never do leh..."fuck for godfking sake i dowan to ask more...cos in the end it just boils down to they dowan you to be better then them...and yea its that realistic even in schools nowadays....BUT luckily i have survived to tell my story...and managed to move on....and these basterd got >3.2 for GPA...
ok lor dunno...one ear in another ear out i will just take it that you are just another passerby in my life cos in fact when ppl ask my things i will try my very best to help...even when i dunno i will help the guy find a solution...MISTER you are alr in my badbooks...and if you push it...i will give you good time...
why wanna like that sia make everyone unhappy...sometimes its just a small help...just do it luh...it wont take away a piece of ur flesh....

Anyway i have seen it openly liao..THATS LIFE

2009-09-24T09:24:00.000-07:00

Morning had a headache at the back of my head...haiss initially no mood go to work but after gong to work...haha it was so fun seriously i have many friends there although i am the youngest...fighting the war there without the devil is a ease for me...
Working hand in hand with wilfred is really fun and fast because of our teamwork...we know each other well enough...that makes working mkuch easier...Danny teached us many principles of life too...we work as long as have fun and at the same time we learn...its so much of a fun...i just hope such moments could last,time could stop there and then and never end
At night ,sushi marathon....and when me and wilfred thought the game has just ended Danny pulled out another tray of sushi...we munched happily...though we are full...training our appetites=D the next battle is on sunday and we will see what it turns out to be....

Good times never last

2009-09-22T23:37:00.001-07:00

well war dude..this is war...the battle has been fought for months...and now we are recruits beng brought in to battle...R&D vs Supervisors vs OM haiss
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wadever my shoulders been hurting from ytd front break fall training....the faster it ends the better i needa start defray the costs...
Good news is I passed all modules =D MUST MUST MUST work hard next sem....bad news? GPA 2.04 zzz sick and tired man....
what a good feeling is it to be free of all troubles...i hope everything could have last longer...

2009-09-19T10:24:00.000-07:00

Hmm ytd i wanted to make a damn disgusting post but i forgot to...
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Ok 1st i was walking back home after TKD training...den on the floor i saw a pile of things...dunno what was that...to my curiousity i took a closer look and i vomited right on the spot!!!...it was a huge pile of slime like half the size of a normal brick...and FYI it was 3 snails MATING... wtf i wanna PUKE snails its own alr disgust me liao.. sian luh seriously i got phobia of such things...now the sight keeps repeating in my mind...seriously why must heaven cr8 such disgusting creatures like leeches, snails,slugs, lizard....WTF
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Today i went to some dunno rather should i say cheapskate cafe along the beach...and a fucking family spoile my mood ,atmosphere and whole lunch....one of the mother keep shouting at the fucking kids the other side the kids keep screaming...cheeebye dunn0 how to practice some self-control at public places i feel like taking a video post on stomp...pissed...SPOILERS

2009-09-18T09:16:00.000-07:00

Finished the drama today and again i wanna say soo perfect=Dquite jealous haha
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Got platini stamp done alr and the contract start effect on next week heheh
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Seems like i am getting in the fit of things...went for teakwondo today proudly executed my 360-high turning kick on some guys head but i dunno why that fucker cannot do wan try to use that on me...its like using my spells against me...pls man u know how hard i train to master this kick or not...zzz
Had talk after training with WanDin, Ernest and ChaiLin i think the previous TKD committee had favouritisim on ppl..they actually nominated ppl that always nvr go for trainings as a Vice president and pls la ppl are not very happy with it...it also seems like most ppl also know the previous President is so in good terms with tt asshole lor...
KNS hate can liao la better keep my mouth shut and keep it safe...later get into trouble sia...

2009-09-17T07:11:00.000-07:00

Perfect love story+ music
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watched some drama discs ....dunno wads the english name.. the girls love and thier relationship was so perfect i hope i was the actor in the show...
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Tmr i gonna runaway from home right at the morning and take uniform!!=D and wilfred says hes gonna accompany me wah tts so nice of him...
wadeva tmr if i feel well i gonna go tkd kick some asses...next week is work liao le lorh sad sia...one min i dowan work another min i need money...haiss life is such man...i just hope i can be like these few days laze around and last it through and through dowan sch to start...cos seriously i think of my bloody boring class and study i SIAN liao...i like to live life my own
~Eternal slacking pls~

2009-09-15T09:02:00.001-07:00

TMD really sickening today got news of the new teakwondo comittee damn upset luh i not chosen but some ppl lousier then me get secretary post...reminds me of 2 yrs ago what happened in student council...a basterd was chosen to become a secretary...dunno why sia heaven is really blind sometimes...
and now this guy who isnt coming for trainings become a secretary...good luck to him man wish him get all the shyt jobs...and secretary isnt a easy task...wait till the sparring time comes when it comes to me and u i will smash ur head like none other...3pts 3pts 3pts all the way dude...and trust me i hate ur fking face...
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haiss nvm la sometimes life is such thrs ups and downs...just take it the way it is...

2009-09-09T08:30:00.000-07:00

Yo...i am back...
ppl say thrs smth wrong with blogger now i am blogging i can tell thrs really smth wrong with the scripts...
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Back to sch for more Teakwondo training last week and finnaly yesterday i mastered 360 high turning kick...so nice sia when kick...HEHEH
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thinking of ways to make money my own luh depend on companies i will die...
i gonna find myself a gf soon>>i dunno issit sursed or smth my friends so many got GF liao i still dont have...my next sem resolution haha wish me luck....Nobodyy in mind currently hmmm...~~~~

2009-08-06T03:33:00.000-07:00

3 Down 4 more to go. Life science i think i have 75% chance of passing if nothing goes wrong...Coms skills alr pass liao...Project talking about it makes mad...
got a black sheep in the group which fucking leave everything to last minute and thinks she can do...go hell la mother fucker if tmr i cannot go ahead with my submission u owe me big time...Asshole sia why got such leechers in the group sia...Tmr is the submision and i see wad she done..is seriously shit work luh....
i am left with
ESSIT
JAVA Programming
HTML T.T(wish me good luck in javascripting)
Com maths

LALALA WISH ME LUCK UH!!!BLESS ME MY LORD *.*

2009-08-05T08:52:00.000-07:00

Yo back to post....hmmm many things happened sia and if i were to write out it will take me more ten 100years lol... haha
Why the style of blogging seemed like have some changes...i dont really like it lol...
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Watched Harry Potter 6 with Wen Xin and her friend Lynnette recently and is was soo exciting manzz...omgosh i wanna transfer school to Hogwarts luh i dowan study in NYP liao HAHA and Harry's clique and Luna is gonna be my friends...Yayness...lol it seems impossible lols..anywa i am gonna download harry potter game to my PSP when i am fre and i am gonna play!!!
Well~shall we go watch Horror soon??=P dont freak out haha
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Yesterday had full contact Sparring i was being scolded for charging and beingtoo hard on girls...sia lasparrig is no mercy de lo. i use technique and strength. I dont care whoever u are luh and since i dont really like ur face i even got more anderaline to KO you ahh did you even realised not only i was Harsh i even TAUNTED YOU??? i must say i felt really GOOD!=D dont blameme for no fighting ettiquettes=p
Talking about strength sia la tt guy is like lousier then me bu his strenth really powerful lo 1 side kick can make me fall back wah really i must train harder liao...
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Ahh i tmr got 35% life science test siol....and now i am left with 1 more Order form and webpage to do
Cya muggles---
Avada Kadavra===

2009-06-21T10:17:00.000-07:00

Dont come to me for help uh NB i F-ing hate it when ppl make use of me after that...whoa!!!...wad?? play reverse psychology....tmd u think u girl...So wad???KNS
You are Bloody selfish to make up for your own purpose u try to make use of othr ppls close relation of frendship...come on luh maybe other wont see thru you but for me??i am immune to such actions...
when u dont need help do you even come talking to me even asking 'how are you'???hello not only me u did that to most of your friends and when ppl realised and say it u just said u were busy...uhm that sound lik a 3 yr old excuse....
Now that you cleared up your misunderstanding...i just wish not to have any strings attached to you...i wont help you anymoreand if you know who you are dont come to me for help again or dont blame me to turn my back on you or turn nasty to YOU!!!!
_ _ _ _ _ --->YOU SUCKS

2009-06-18T21:31:00.000-07:00

My advice is dont get into trouble:once u get involved and when ppl come after you you will keep thinking of it.it literally spoils your life.
just before school closed on last week...ESSIT practical the Word.docx i dunno how do....ahhh so i go copy and paste from my friend one portion of the work sian how i know the machine soooooo clever even copy a portion alsogot caught...ahh and just when i thought it was all over...my Project Manager called and say wanna meet us...omg i wonder wads gonna happen i hope its nothing bad and i wont do such a thing again without thinking twice=(

2009-06-07T08:24:00.000-07:00

Ahhh MIA for so long cos i lazy to update blog sia+ many quiz and assignments....DUDE who says poly can slack???bluff me arh....the feeling here sucks alright?GAH~ i gotta do my revisions seh....TMD i not planning to work these 2 weeks i wanna take the time to catch up on my work =)and SERIOUSLY HOPEFULLY i will do so....countdown 1 more week to the much awaited break...
133rd Teakwondo Grading in a month time. Pls la the pattern for begginners so easy....i am aiming for DOUBLES ok=)

tatahh

2009-05-23T22:09:00.000-07:00

Sorry ppl for not keeping my promises...saying i wanna do homework promise that i wont talk to 'someppl'...i dowanna make empty promises any more...
theres ppl calling me to read their blog not pin pointing who are they i would be happy to do so...but for the fact that u want to prove me how matured u are....alchohol???go hell pls that doesnt show ur maturity u dumb...just go back to your poor lousy poly with ur lousy friends to rot....truthful friends??did u even treat me as one when u were talking to me ?if not pls dont mention that to me i hate two-faced bitches...luckily i werent as close to you as last year or i will give you hell in school...i swear i will ignore your msn chats next time....you only talk to me when you are bored wads the point???as i said before you have changed so pls dontt rot infront of me...
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i got quizzes and assignments coming up i MUST DO IT +.+

2009-05-15T23:25:00.000-07:00

Monay is my 17th birthday haha wonder how many will be even saying 'happy birthday' to me...Anyway...i am gratefull of Mr Lawrance and my class celebrating my birthday in advance....
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Well sometimes when u mix around in a new environment....its either u become a better person or changed...for me hmm i think i have made new friends...
and for "someothers" they are too happy to let others know they are too much of an adult...well i dont get impressed by that..and seriously i feel in a stupid school ur mind turned stupid as well...
I have tried wad u have tried drinking???smoking? ive tried during working in IshiMura but i didnt felt nice in fact i felt degraded...well u can change?i can change my perceptions of u too....
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Abt Teakwondo this comin friday get attire --uhh white belt~ sian i am going to earn my title luh see some ppl so sucky can get black belt dunno issit bluff de yearone only get black belt i see his fitness level pls luh i am 10 times better then him blackbelt pls luh u like that bluff...no one can tell whether u true or not mah...blackbelt must buy newone???no old attire meh....zzz u wait and see man i am gonna spar u and give u some ass whipping lesson

2009-05-10T08:09:00.000-07:00

okays MIA for last 3 days at teakwondo camp...
Firstly the can was a success WHOOO~cheers to everyone...as usual luh post camp surely got muscle aches...but most importantly is everyone have fun...
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Okay down to bussiness...its not i have grudge with foreigners or wad but the moment i hear china woman voice seriously i sian 1/2 sick man...ok is not china ppl i hate but seriously i am okay with china guys in our country...
why?because they are making a decent living in singapore...not like those bitches...walk around geylang...who do you see 90% cheapskate womans are selling themselves over there...and what?these are called foreign talents....same for MRTs these cheap bitches squeeze themselve through the train snatching sits with old lady where are their graciousness....singapore doesnt need ppl like that to improve our graciousness like this...wad more,creating a nuisance of themselves by having cat fights in the public to put it bluntly...how cheap...i am sure majority agrees with me...
china guys are directly opposite they exchange thier livings by doing labour to feed themselves....well its fine isnt it?
Same for NYP teakwondo its like a few china girls and want get close to boys???disgusting man...i wont buy in ur stupid shit luh....
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"ohhh...u are so bubbly and sunshine girl i just wanna fall for you"

2009-05-07T08:55:00.000-07:00

ahhh long time no blog...cos know why???everyday is a usual routine...okays tommorow is teakwondo camp and i am going it for 'someone' if he/she never go i will be sad luh....grading pls come soon i wan am waiting for the upcoming teakwondo open championships...
Tommorow if i am free i am gonna go buy ankle weights to train my legs....ps(on budget haha)
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oh~talking about academic...tommorow is computing maths test...i am ready boy...+tonights revision...i am ready for the battle...
during previous posts i mentioned about java scripts are tough..hmm but after some practices i did my self yesterday it really somehow enlightened me...it shows Progamming seriously needs practice...Programming is the deal in my course and for some humour in my blog thers a bloody girl not girl boy not boy in my class a mother fker....wad a joker diploma in IT no labtop no handphone haha i wish i can just give him a shit in his face....
Wadever i maybe weak but i gonna exchange them for rewards with hardwork and time

2009-05-01T09:46:00.000-07:00

Today went for movie with Ali ,karthik,andre and vickensh to plaza sing to watch ORIGINS of Xmen....well i feel its a good movie hmm worth tho money spent...the story line was good and the features were great...we had some chit chats here and there...
and exchanged our experiences at our different schools..personally as friends i seriously wish them the best=D
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today was and outing day and i promise i gonna do assignments tomorow=D

PLS PAY UR DAMN DEBTS TO ME

2009-04-28T10:08:00.000-07:00

haha did revision and looked through my notes before sleeping last night...and i understand most of it already...i just need more excercises on Computing maths...
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Went for teakwondo training today..wow saw so many black belts...i wanna be a fighter also...i gonna get some colours during my grading in 3 months time....haha just that need to pay fees...grr money again....wadever...i am gonna make the most out of teakwondo...AGILITY +agi is most important..haha

2009-04-27T08:20:00.000-07:00

i feel i am lagging behind for lessons man....sian things like computer maths...i think its completely aint maths at all....its another number jargon using a different sort of system in counting...oh i am lagging behind HOW!!!Poly no tuition teacher leh lectuerer gives mass lecture once and for all....which means u better understand in lectures or u keep up the pace urself at home....well well i am gonna keep up...i dont want to lag behind....
tomorow is teakwondo i hope all my lessons flows smoothly for me and i hope cca's gonna be fun

2009-04-23T09:24:00.000-07:00

Some times i feel life isnt fair....its like wtf thinking back those who didnot take thier o's seriously when ITE even rejected them... and can get symphathy from some noob unrecognised poly to get in....its totally not fair....application to ITE even fail and can enter to RP stupid right...all this stupid shyt luh....den ppl who are hardworking but is just poor in some critical subjext has to get retained....
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And pls man...now i am not in comtact with 'YOU' and more i feel u aint anything special.... ppl get attracted to you just because you are bloody bitchy and firtatious ever since i gotta know u last year...what happen in the end???u eventually dump the guys u dont like one side and let them blindly fogged thier eyes up with your false charm....eh pls luh attracting attention???wow now the more i feel i am stupid man...poly and worklife broaden up my mind...you???

I totally dispise u girl...

2009-04-22T08:17:00.000-07:00

Learnt introduction to Java today...hmm many lecturers said it was a hard Module... haiss tthe number of reapeating module student could tell the story probably....hmm hard???maybe as it goes on bah i think for today i think its simply manipulation and its walkover for me....i keep my fingers crossed as it goes on it wont be hard but manageable=D
Had the Iweb Aplications devt.Proj. on the lab today....zzzz it was todal misery man....i dunno why i so unlucky my computer cannot save the microsoft word file while others can...seriously luh i think NYP computer are outdated and slow....seriously CMI man....so i unlucky la! Must copy down the steps as notes then go home use my own lab top to try....walao i think after this week since i know wad lesson needs wad i gonna bring my labtop if needed....
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CCA display today... went to the sports indoor staduim...and was like wow its busting with activities it really opens up my mind alot...and i saw the outdoor staduim and swimming pool...haha gonna plan my schedule soon....i have an eye to join DragonBoat but i think i also have choices for teakwondo and kayaking....hmm still considering=D

2009-04-20T05:52:00.000-07:00

First day at school today found the only thing is challenging is Binary -Computer maths...it deals with numbers 1 and 0's haha well its really challenging for me...the rest...hmm i hope the lesson could me more interesting=D i am trying to concentrate and understand every part of my lesson=D i want a new start
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hmm i was appointed as team leader for my interactive web project....hmm so for that i hope my team could get down to real work and no jokes boy....jokes???out of class....
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the class sucks man dunno how to plan....must buy all the books in the booklist during 1st day 2nd day cannot buy....stupid sia queue so long...haiss den late for lecture...zzzzthe only class late for lecture....then go break must go in one whole large gang....zzzz pls lai dunno how to comment about these ppl

2009-04-16T09:53:00.000-07:00

aiyah wadever la actually wan put some pictures to show ppl on my blog but zzzz the stupid HTML thing i dunno how to make... wadever manzzz
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come to know just today my poly medical report been bounced back cos of a MINOR issue and tmr i gotta go down personnally to settle it....last month when i go at the last stage the stupid doctor never call me to sign and then i happyly went home...then UNTIL NOW then call me to tell me this crap...sian sia...
Lucky i am not going down just to do this matter or i will give the clerk there a bloody ass whippin' for wasting my time....
tmr i am gg down to amk as well to make ezlink card=D aiyah why make the stupid card man...when the fare is still same as adult fare... stupid dum dumb....

2009-04-13T10:30:00.000-07:00

okays...back from my trip....haha 1st day was pathetic manzzz...went to casino with parents at genting but.....Hotel FULL HOUSE...wtf right???drive all the way up den hotel full.... well went down at KL and then as usual lor eat eat shop shop....
Vice versa for the subsequent 3days...i am gonna upload and post the photos tmr as well for those in my china trip during december=D
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hmm baught a new addidas hood sweater and some Tees....wow...i am armed for poly life muAHAHA
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No offence being racist but knn..why malays are so unreliable...they backstabb ppl...i am not saying all but minority...and i can name u....ppl like mustafa...can owe money and dont answer calls give stupid reasons to delay payment...bloody cheat...wadever la these kind of ppl i have seen much...if small sum i wont persue...but look how much have idiots like these owe me...
zzz i am tired now tmr shall update more=D

2009-04-10T12:29:00.001-07:00

Today had a gathering with some IshiMura collegues as well as both of my Shi-Fu ....we had some talk over a drink....well they were talking about Ishimuras news...heard some of the news for some i felt angryy....
I always wonder why when we just started to form tight friendships then we start to part from each other....i dont like this happening...cos i really treasure these kind of close friendships...YouYi was a really good caring and loyal friend....he often treat me for meals...ask me to study hard and not to follow his pathways...and he also told me to find the person i really love....haha wow and many more from the others cannot finish mentioning all wad other say...these are really true memorable friendships...i just hope to rewind back those times and be at that moment for long long time...well the other group of friends i made is LiCang and ShaoQi they were my first batch of friends that i made =D
I must just say these sweet wonderful memories i dowant them to be forgotten and i still want to keep in touch with them =D
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well while talking few hours ago something i heard really made me angry on fire....the chief head incharge of IshiMura is really too much...
he was telling other collegues...'i am looking for chances to fire that uncle'....i mean WTF???ppl come work to earn a living same as you...and u talk this kind of words???ppl is 70 years old leh and old isnt his fault....i mean wont you get old one day too????although hes old he does his job promptly...wad f-ing right u have to say u want to fire him??????if u kept it in your heart and not say it out ppl still not so many but you have just gone too too far....the whole company is tolerating your nonsence for godsake!!!
I will still go back to ishimura to visit my good friends during my free time but if i come to find out that uncle is being driven out by him!!!!!hes going to get hell from me....
p.s that uncle is very kind....and he doesnt have any temper....he cultivate good relations with collegues...i really hate kind ppl being bullies by thes bullies...=(
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ok its bed time now and i am heading for malaysia these comeing few days....=D

sweet friendship memories=D

2009-04-08T11:03:00.000-07:00

Angry hor ...TMD dont piss me off uh....eh fat basterd i dont want mention who from last year try to interfere with my personal affairs last year....i tot he has dissappeared from my life forever...now that idiot is back to disturb my senses when i was not around....hes back i am totally irritated by it...
Scouted this particualr news from 'someones' blog...u wan play u just admit and i will fight with u fairly la...walao u underthodx style of using other ppl mouth to kacao kacao...wa thinks he does things and ppl aint aware of it....if really ppl say isnt true just admit it la say u 'dont like'okay case finished sua...i dont care anymore...wa den now come play games...ppl alr say dont like u den still keep sticking to ppl like a worm....steady abit la be a man like me admit it if u like....i have alr admitted....stupid sia...older then me by 1 year den the balls so chicken....
why???scared poly no more girls will like u uh because of ur size....???dont worry la there are millions of girls out there...why u just want disturb me leh????if u hit my raw nerve uh i cant gurantee u will be safe when u go out hor...wtf angry sia*((*^&(*^(*^(&)(_ i just hope we are still schooling in BPS now so i can give u some ass whippin...
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haiss why got such idoits still surviving in this world uh wan be third party....wadever la i not pointing fingers at anyone as i never say name...too angry to post my day here la....
today is ordinary day...mom take leave but we just stayed home slacking...

2009-04-07T09:06:00.000-07:00

Had some tiffs with my brother today i really feel guilty....time and time again i threatened to whack him and then earthquake starts...i am always the source of these problems...
wadever lar i dont like to mention about sad things in my blog...
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Schs gonna start soon...sleepyheads wake up from ur vacations and prepare for school life....i think poly is gonna be much more interesting however....i have a strong sixth sense that its gonna be very very hectic ....well i am well armed for this battle of 3 years....
-Now i am gonna promise myself i want to do well when term starts....
-I always make empty promises...and dissapoint my parents since primary school...this is WARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR its a new start....i am going to use the computer for useful purposes...
dunno whether i am going to make it but i am confident i can....i am going to be attentive in lectures and tutorial lessons...
Thinking of this battle in NYP i feel that its good and bad....good because i can socialise more and not rot at home everyday....bad because there exam/assesments/tests/these really make my hair stand...

tatahh~i hope i can spend my rest of my holidays fruitfully....perhaps i gonna write a short summary of what has happened ever since after olvls and the start of my holidays=D